I went to the doctor this morning. She and the medical assistant were kind and listened. I was honest about everything, even some things I didn't know I was prepared to admit. She gave me a diagnosis that I was not surprised by and wrote some prescriptions and made some strong suggestions.
So now I need to find a therapist and wait for the pills to start working. I told Daniel last night that it's been so long since I felt like myself that I don't even necessarily remember who I was. I'm hoping that myself comes back soon though. I miss her.
And to you all- thanks for listening and encouraging. I appreciate it.