I just emailed my company and resigned completely.
I've been working there for SEVEN years. And that's after about a bazillion and a half years of school to get the degree to be able to work there.
But I'm also 100% sure that God is not wanting this for us anymore. I've been hanging on to this job "just in case" and putting my hope on it as my safety net. And it was getting hard to do even small tasks well- when the kids are insanely running around, concentration is tough. I kept thinking that I just needed to hang on until the kids go to school, but that's still 3 years away for Ethan.
In the end, it's better to go out on a high note than to hang on and continue to do my work with only part of my time and attention. I'd rather leave good memories of my work, in case I do go back in the future, rather than messing things up and not being liked anymore. And I owe my kids my full time and attention. This is the job that I need to focus on right now.
I still feel a little ill. It was so hard to hit send on that email.