Some of you emailed me about my blog being offline for a few days. I'm trying to figure out what exactly to do with this blog. I feel like it's turned into a giant whiny mess. But the truth is, I'm having a really bad time right now. Not sure if it's the return of the rain or my hormone fluctuations thanks to weaning Vivian or the utter lack of time to myself and little sleep or what. But I'm kind of a mess. I feel most sorry for Daniel in all of this- he comes home to me crying most days. Last night I just broke down and kept saying "but how can you like me when *I* dont like me." It's hard for me to believe that he can love this messy, fat, boring version of me, when the me he married less than 4 years ago had a career and made money and had a social life and was 30 pounds thinner. My brain knows that he does still love me and he shows it, but I just can't grasp that.
And that right there is an example of the crap that I feel like I always subject you all to here on the blog and I don't like that. So I'm going to take a few days off and restrict my whining to purely offline methods. I'll be back on Monday to blog about our Olympic experiences and Chinese New Year in Vancouver. I can't believe the Olympics are finally almost here!
Anyway, Vivian's about to get the cable cord again (I forgot how much work it is when they get mobile!), so I better go intervene in that.
Oh and look who's 2 1/2! My little boy is growing up!