I'm serious, there's something in me that just cannot tolerate Tuesdays. It's like I'm allergic to them or something. Even Tuesdays that are disguised as Mondays, like today.
Today is one of those days where I'm feeling down for no reason. Where I just feel like there is a weight sitting on my shoulders all day. I don't want to go anywhere or do anything or comb my hair or smile at people. It's a day when I'm dreading the end of Ethan's TV-watching hour, because then I have to come up with ideas for entertaining him.
I think today's emotions are partially hormonally-driven. My body seems to be rebelling against me lately. For some reason I'm not one who gets any of the good side effects of breastfeeding. Breastfeeding itself is easy enough, but I don't feel bonded and I don't lose weight and I'm not free of other unpleasant girl things.
And I'm also having a day where I'm taking EVERYTHING too personally. I'm feeling unloved and rejected by people that I don't even know, people that I only interact with online and that have no real importance in my life. I just want to be liked by everyone, even people I don't know! Yeah, that's not a particularly healthy life perspective. Must work on that.
OH CRAP! They've changed the lineup on PBS! Clifford isn't on now anymore! What to do? Gotta go, Ethan needs entertaining earlier than expected.