Monday, June 9, 2008

Monday night

Daniel just asked me if I was going to bed soon (he's in bed already, with Miss Popularity asleep on the pillow next to him) and I replied "I have to go blog first". This may be the first sign of a serious problem.

People have been worried about us all day, since I posted/called/emailed with news of the layoff. Truthfully, we're fine for now. You've got about 3 weeks before insane posts start showing up here. Back in January things were pretty bad with his old job, and so we went through all the "what if you get laid off", "what if you get fed up and quit" scenarios. We already had talked to my company about me increasing my hours to qualify for benefits and things like that. So this is sort of part 2 of a situation we already addressed back then. Except the whole "worst-case" scenario never came to pass earlier this year. And we might be facing it now. But I'm not going to think about that just yet.

Truthfully- I believe that God is taking care of us. In the midst of layoffs, breakups, depression, family tragedies, whatever. I have seen Him work in these things. I'm not speaking hypothetically. I have seen how His plan, which I thought was absolutely awful at the time, worked for the best for me. And it hurt. As this layoff probably will hurt. This is not the best time to be finding yourself out of work. But I believe that God is in charge of this situation and all other situations. He might ask us to wait for a while or for a long time. We might have to give up things that we thought we couldn't give up. I've done it before, and I will do it again, because I trust Him.

That all being said, I'm tired today. One of the other Seattle Mom Bloggers is having a tough time today. Please pray for her and her friends. I wish life didn't hurt so much. I'm tired of disasters that wipe out whole countries and plane crashes and general sadness. We're going to visit my grandmother on Wednesday and I'm worried that I'm not strong enough for her grief over the loss of her sister. I'm just weary of it all. I wish that I had the answers for all of this, that I could make it all better. But I don't and I cant. Except to say that I trust the Almighty God who does have the answers and that I wish He'd share them with me while I hurt and am scared.

Time to go kick Miss Popularity off my pillow and snuggle with my husband. I think we both need it about now.

1 comment:

JCK said...

I'm so sorry for your tough and challenging times. Sending good thoughts your way. Just remember, sometimes it helps to take it one day at a time - even if it is one hour at a time. This too shall pass.