That's the curse of motherhood, isn't it. Constantly wondering if you've done/said the right thing. Worrying because your child is a completely unique individual, and so are you, so there's no one that you can check things against. This does not suit my personality... not at all...
Anyway, today I'm having a battle with my pre-mom personality versus my mom personality. One of the things I hate most in life is bothering people. Any people. Even people that I pay to bother. Including the doctor. We've only taken Ethan in for well-baby visits so far, and I've only left phone messages with the doctor twice, once when he'd been constipated for 4 days, and once when he threw up all over me.
Last week Ethan caught a cold. He's still coughing and still has a runny nose. This week Daniel and I caught it, and it's a nasty bug. I totally understand why Ethan's been so cranky. A few days ago, Ethan started pulling on his ear. Not constantly, but often. But he didn't seem upset about it, so I kind of let it go. Especially since he's also teething and some of the books/websites said that teething pain can lead to ear tugging. But then today I realized that he's also been screaming when we lay him down flat, which is apparently another symptom of an earache.
I finally dealt with my fear of "bothering" the doctor and called for an appointment for tomorrow (I don't have access to a car today). I did have a lot of ear problems as a kid, so it's likely that Ethan will too. And we're going to Victoria on Friday, and I don't want him getting more sick in Canada when we're far from our doctors. So now I've shifted my guilt and second-guessing to worrying if I should have found a way to get him to the doctor today. Even though he seems to be pretty much okay. Sigh. THIS JOB IS HARD!!!! Is there an instruction manual somewhere that I didn't get? Anyone have a spare copy?